Comforting Arms

Remember how when I first got engaged I had these horrible dreams that Brant called off the wedding? Probably not. But I sure do. They were AWFUL! I had to text/call him a couple of times in the early morning hours to have him reassure me that they were in fact just dreams.

Well, last night that dream returned.

It started out as something harmless...I was on a date with a guy who had dark hair and 2 kids. We were sitting on the beach having a picnic. Then it switched to my brother-in-law telling me that he had talked to my date who said he'd had a great time and wanted to go out again. At first I was excited. But then the most terrible feeling came over me and I remembered Brant.

I doubled over, gasping for air as my sister tried to comfort me and tell me to forget about Brant. Yeah...like THAT would happen. I couldn't breathe. I had to get out of there. So I ran down the hall past this wall full of all Brant & my wedding plans. I completely lost it then.

Luckily at this point I woke up.

But it wasn't a nice waking up. I woke up gasping for air, shaking, crying, and not knowing what was reality or dream. It took about 30 seconds to remember that Brant should be in the bed with me and thankfully he was there, sound asleep.

I grabbed onto him so tightly it wasn't long before he woke up asking what was wrong. I stammered out that I dreamed he had left me. And I can't even describe the feeling I got when I enveloped me in his arms and said he was there and not going anywhere. I just laid in his arms and wept. It still took me about 15 minutes to calm down and I never got back to sleep. But those arms wrapped around me kept me in reality.

And my reality is that I have a husband who loves me. And honestly, that's all that matters in the world to me right now.

Picture Update

So Brant and I have been busy the past 4 months. (Can you believe it's already been 4 months!!! I sure can't!)

To celebrate the end of tax season, Brant & I headed down to Zion National Park for a little R&R. We first stopped off in St. George and stayed with my friend Whitney Harris. I didn't get any pics with her, but we had a great time with her & her family.

In Zion, we took it pretty easy and just did one hike - Hidden Canyon. Before leaving, I purchased new hiking sandals (Chaco's). I was super excited about them, but learned quickly the benefit of breaking in hiking shoes/sandals. About 1/3 way through the hike my feet started hurting and I had blisters. So Brant & I did the majority of the hike barefoot. I had a good reason to, but Brant just thought it was fun. We had such a great time in Zion and it was just what I needed after a stressful busy season.

For Memorial Day, Brant's family scheduled family pictures on Saturday morning. On our way down to Provo for the pictures, Brant and I decided to do a spontaneous trip up to my family cabin in Island Park, ID. Well, pictures took a LOT longer than we expected and we didn't get home until 6:30 pm! But we decided to throw caution to the wind and quickly packed a bag and the car and started the 4.5 hour drive. We got there just in time for it to start snowing (ugh!). We quickly turned on the heat and jumped in to bed. The next day we headed in to Yellowstone. On Monday we hung out in West Yellowstone and ate at my family's favorite pizza place.

Needless to say, it's been a fun 4 months! But I'm very excited for summer and all the fun new adventures we're going to go on.